Accomplished a lot, many victories, I finally started to overcome my fears of letting “Fiona” out. This blog, coming out “en femme” to my friends and most of the people around me.
Put out porn vids of me as Fiona expressing her sexuality.
I should be happy, for so long I lived in fear of expressing that side of myself. I feared to be be thought of as a freak and utterly rejected. That fear controlled me, I jammed those feelings down, but they eventually it became too hard to live a lie.
So, why am I down? I still have a long way to go. I still express some self destructive tendencies. The last month I fucked off my diet, fucked off important work I needed to do. But mostly just grieving for my mother who passed in October.
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